Dreary Day

Today is a cold, dreary, gray day, and that is how I am feeling. It's annoying that although I am working two jobs now, it is still not enough to pay all the bills, and certainly not enough to have anything left over, not even to fix our car!

So much to do, so little time to do it, and it's not even really because of the holidays. I am just not able to get it all done and keep up with everything, which means some things get moved to the back burner, and unfortunately, sometimes that includes my extended family.

By the time my family gets home from their jobs in other time zones, I am already in the middle of supper with the family, or at karate with the boys, where I can't talk on the phone, or at youth group, and then after that it's get the boys ready for bed and then I usually have less than an hour to spend with James. That means that I rarely have time to catch up on anything else, and I have to get to bed so early because I have to be up so early, that family rarely gets called. I hate that, but I am not sure what else to do.

I have also discovered that I really hate to talk on the phone. I despise it, and I would rather text/email/facebook someone 500 times than talk on the phone. I don't know why I hate it, but I guess I have never really liked it. I use to like it more back before email and facebook and texting became really popular, but now it seems draining to me. If I don't feel like I have time for a long conversation, I'd rather not take a call because I know I will only have five minutes, but that's not a really good way to manage things.

New Year's resolution this year might be to call family more. What a dreary day. Ugh.